one week

Well its officialy been one whole week without sammie. i miss her so mcuh i never knew it would be this hard the longesive been without my sissy is ten days its been seven and im going to go crazy. its hard to wake up and walk past her room and know that she isnt there. ive never cried so much in my life i figured i would be out of tears but they aways seem to come when im home alone when she sould be here when im upstairs watching tv without her to be there and laugh at the stupid shows we watch she isnt here to beat my butt at mario kart and it seems like everytime i listen to music i wanna share my head phones with her but she isnt here. i know shes comming back but nine months with out my bestfriend and sister is the hardest thing in the world im glad my mom doesnt have a job because if she did i would just be a bum all day till like 20 mins before they get home lol because id be doing my chores and taking a shower hehe darn my secrit is out! i dont know how mommy can handle not crying every morning because she isnt here to say goodmorining with her big coffee cup that indeed says goodmorning man shes not going to be here for the 4th of july mommys birthday i wonder how mom will handle that? i have to celebrate my birthday without her in a different place without her to be there we were suppost to get are maching tattoos on are 18th birthday which iwll be on a friday and we would have most likely gotten it done in the room 13! and i might also miss thanksgiving with my family. i know ive made the most amazing dessition in my life and do something for my country. im proud of myself and dad is proude of me too!! i just cant wait till christmas and febuary 2010 when i can get of that plane and see my sister. I love you samantha forever and always!! i cant wait to see you!

looking back

Wow i cant belive it in two days i will be graduated from high school! it seems like yesterday i was getting ready to go to kindergarden! man that day broght my mom to tears she was sad to see us go and grow up. from there time has flew first grade to senior year in high school. after that im going to the army reserves i cant wait for that experience! from what ive heard its going to be a life changing event!! then after all that im going to college to study bussness culinary minor in human resourses!





but i willnever forget who has pussed me so hard to get to where i am! my mommy!! i love her so so so so so so much!!